He was close to me, I could feel his warmth
and tenderness, I could feel his genuine love as he stroke my hair whispering
closely into my ears ‘I love you so much, I will never leave you nor forsake
you, you are the apple of my eyes, no evil can come upon you because I will
always be close by to watch over you my love’. As he said all that to me I felt
so relaxed in his arms. Suddenly, I felt his breath pumping so hard. I loosened
myself from his grip and asked him why he was breathing so hard and he replied
‘do you love me as I love you’ I replied him ‘yes I do and you know it’. He
smiled and said to me ‘if you do then please never leave me for all these
perishable things, give me your full attention and love and never listen to
strange voices’. I was scared when I heard his words at first but on the other
hand I didn’t bother since I was in love with him.
He was so ugly and dirty with all
impurities; he sat watching me as I unfolded the letters my love had written to
me. As I read them I imagined my love close by reading through his letters, I
smiled to myself as I read each lines of the letter with ecstasy, they were
filled with true love words, and tears of joy filled my eyes. As I kept on
going through the letters over and over again I heard a voice saying to me ‘do
you think he really loves you’ I stopped to look at the owner of the voice and
saw he was the ugly looking fellow watching me all of the time, I ignored his
words and kept going through my letters. The voice continued ‘if you think he
loves you why are you still having these challenges, why are you being mocked
and insulted, why can’t he fight for you’. I placed my hands on my jaw he was
truly right why should I still be facing all these challenges maybe I should
just let go of him and his love. ‘What do you think I should do’ I asked the
ugly looking man ‘he says he loves me with all his heart’ I continued. ‘Ha ha
ha what love? You better forget him and move on without him’ he said laughing
hilariously leaving me thinking.
I became so busy to even say hi to my lover
or to call on him. I became busy to meet him at our usual meeting point as we
normally did. Each time he calls me I would ignore him. I left him for those
perishable things he foretold me about. Whenever anyone asked me about him I
would simply replied ‘we are still in love’ but deep down within me I knew he
was close but so far away from me.
I realized how lonely I had been without my
love. I realized I had missed him so much. I realized I needed his love badly,
I realized I was so empty and wanted him back into my life I realized I had
listened to the wrong voice. If only I knew I wouldn’t have listened to that
voice. He was close yet so far away from me. What do I do to get close to him
again? How I missed his tender voice, how I missed his letters oh no I want him
now. I placed a call to him ‘please lord I want you back in my life, forgive me
for the neglects, I’m so sorry lord have mercy on me, please take me back into
your life’ I said in tears. he replied me ‘I have been waiting for you all
these while, I never left you I still watched over you from afar even though
you ignored me, the love I have for you is so strong and remember I always tell
you that I will never leave you nor forsake you’. After his words I felt refreshed
in my spirit, I was happy again, I was strengthened. I couldn’t wait to meet
him at our usual joint.
Now I know that he loves me beyond
imagination and I can’t do without him for a day. I feel happy again. Thank you
lord Jesus for accepting me back.
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